Another sleepless night as the appointment approaches

Looks like another sleepless night. As Rorys dr appointment gets closer I find the night time brings almost anything but sleep. Now I'm just drowning in a sea of sadness and worry. I'm dwelling on this little leg and what is to come medically in our future. It has my stomach in knots and my heart in tears. It's just sad to think of lengthening my baby's leg- for her to be in surgeries. I need to sleep-I need to take one day at a time and not dwell on the future, but it's so hard.